Thursday, March 09, 2006
Running in Circles
I'm so frustrated right now. I'm so sad and I don't know which path to take to make myself feel better. Gabe's still making decisions that aren't in our best interest but all the while he's telling me that he really wants to get back together. That doesn't make any sense and I'm so confused. I don't know if I should wait for him to get it together or if I should just move on with my life. I know it's only been a few days but I like to be able to make decisions in my life and then move forward and right now it feels like I'm unable to make any decisions. I'm so tired of that. I don't even know what I want to do because all of my opinions are based on information from outside influences and if I can't get an honest view of what's going on in my life then I can't decide which direction to take it in. I feel so scatterbrained and I can't concentrate on anything. I didn't feel like working today so instead I traced my hand and the hands of all the people in my office. They're very accomodating in my time of crisis. I guess it's just my creative side trying to break free. This picture features the fruits of my labors.