Tuesday, February 28, 2006
We had very warm weather last weekend so we decided to give Lexi and Pheobe a bath with the garden hose. As you can see, they were not appreciative. When we were done, we had to tie them to the hitch on my Jeep to keep them from running away and rolling in the mud to get the nice smells off fo them. They sat and sulked in the beautiful sunshine until they were dry and we let them go. They're so cute when they're mad!
This is a picture of Lexi standing on a rock by my mom and dad's house. This rock looks just like "Pride Rock" from "The Lion King" so I thought it would be fun to take a picture of her up there. She is so photogenic! She was even accomodationg enough to roar for me. She looks just like a ferocious lion surveying her territory. Looks can be deceiving though, she's as harmless as a kitten.
Friday, February 24, 2006
I'm starting to feel a little better. Nothing in my life is going better or differently but my attitude is improving a little bit. Gabe and I are still together but I don't know how long it will last. I guess it all depends on exactly how long it takes him to pull his head out. In the meantime, I've decided it's time for me to be a little selfish. I never get to do what I want to do or make the decisions that I want to make because I always have to worry about everyone else. Right now I'm jsut going to do whatever I want so that my life can be enjoyable, no matter what Gabe decides to do. I'm going to move down closer to the beach so I can ride my bike everywhere and hang out with my dog. I'm also trying to save up money so that if I'm not going on a honeymoon this summer, I can at least go on a rockin vacation. I just want to have fun and be happy. I think I might get a tatoo too. I don't want my mom to kill me but art work on my skin seems like a cure all right now. I posted this picture because that's me all by myself, with no makeup on. I just want to get back to basics and figure out what really makes me happy.
Thursday, February 16, 2006
My Blog is kind of like a journal and here comes the entry of the year. Last night, around 10:00 pm, Gabe called off our wedding. We've been arguing about a couple of things lately and last night I tried to approach him with some possible solutions to our problems. Instead of considering them or brainstorming with me, he decided it would be best if we just didn't get married. He said he still loves me and thinks I'm his soul mate but we shouldn't get married right now. I know I'm being narrowminded but I don't think those two concepts can even exist in the same sentence. The bottom line is Gabe is a liar. He probably never intended to marry me in the first place and is finally willing to admit it. He was just tricking me all along. He, along with many others before him, fanagled me into participating unwittingly in this new fun sport that men seem to find so exciting. It's called, "How long can I lead this poor girl on before she finds out that I never had any intention of following through on any of my promises?" I lasted a good year in this round. Not a record for me but still, a good long run. It was a sufficient amount of time for my whole life plan to be put through the wringer again. I don't understand why all of the women I know have made good decisions and grown into strong people who accomplish the things they want to accomplish. everyone I know is finding the right person and settling down and having babies and I'm just standing here in the same place I was 10 years ago, wondering about one of the great mysteries of life. Everyone can figure this thing out but me. I'm tired of starting over and I refuse to do it again. It looks like I'm gonna be the one who never gets married so, if any of you need a babysitter, don't call me. It's too depressing. The worst part is I think that sunny Southern California will be permanantly tainted from my point of view.