The thing that's really bothering me is that this negative self image is not my natural disposition. Historically I'm a confident, pretty girl who doesn't spend too much time worrying about her appearance. It's only since I had a couple babies that my self image has hit a rough spot. My belly is no longer flat, and probably never will be. The acne that sprung up when I was pregnant with my first baby has taken up permanent residence on my face. These are annoyances, but they didn't really get to me until after I had my second baby. I had some health problems after her that left my heart and lungs a little slower than they use to be, and I think this may be the root of my problem. I can't really do things the same way I use to do them. I can't work out REALLY hard, I can't stay up very late, and I can't chat with my girlfriends and jog at the same time. I can do so, so many other things, but for some reason, I'm stuck on the things I can't do. I know, ridiculous, right?
I'd like to say I'm making a commitment right now to stop worrying about these silly things, right here and now, but how does one do that? How do I just forget about something that's been picking at me for months? I thought that taking good care of myself (eating right and exercising) would be the answer, but not so much. I think this is a problem I need to solve in my brain, not in my body, but how? I know what the standard answers are here: Pray. Show more gratitude. Don't worry. I hear you, and I'm on it. I guess slow but steady will win the race?
Sorry for the serious post. I'll be funny next week. :)